the american experiment requires refinement; implies destruction. useful men will be more useful (out of many one) once they find the man to be. Masons never die, they rebuild the walls and trap themselves in. i have children. they have no idea that i only have ideas. i reinvent myself until they are capable; can watch their father fade. i make things but am no Traveling Man. "Haile Selassie loved Ethiopia," the Afar man says, "perhaps his worst flaw. He took his role as Father very seriously, very literally." His Majesty's reward eaten by HIM children. i talk too much. when i stop talking everyone asks if i am ok, even though they're tired of me. worms will eat opinions from my brain; flowers spring from worm shit, but my brain only blood. in Lalibela they wear yellow when they can no longer deny that nobody is listening. they make stories about someone who does. every father is a failure so they wish for a Son.